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Feeling insane

Feeling insane   
The darkness, my element  listening to the silence  wearing black and hiding  watching the stars and dreaming  me  the creature of the night  so scared of the darkness  knowing  
the ghosts  are always near  not thinking  they could exist  but knowing  
that they are there  in my mind  always present  
when the light turns out

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Real HappinessReal Happiness   
Happiness  a word said so easily  am I happy when I laugh  am I happy when I smile  even if it is not faked  isn't this just shallow?   
My happiness lies in the past  and somehow can't move on  something keeps it from reaching the present  something keep it from reaching me   
I can define it new  but it will always be just an imitation  of something that just cannot be copied Real Happiness
in Open on 3/17/08
DreamingDreaming   
Dreaming my life  remembering and smiling  imagining and laughing  reading and watching   
living  
the alternative ending of my life  the second version  living the dream  dreaming my life   
And then suddenly  pulled back to the nightmare  having to admit  my past is over  and memories are all  all that is left Dreaming
in Open on 3/7/08
Feeling insaneFeeling insane   
The darkness, my element  listening to the silence  wearing black and hiding  watching the stars and dreaming  me  the creature of the night  so scared of the darkness  knowing  
the ghosts  are always near  not thinking  they could exist  but knowing  
that they are there  in my mind  always present  
when the light turns out Feeling insane
in Open on 3/7/08
The somethingThe something   
Awaking  feeling pulled  moving without action  looking and seeing  
something inside me  transparent but solid  screaming  the something  it makes me move as it wants   
awaking in relief  then noticing the something  still there  standing up and trying to walk  searching for help  leaving the room   to look into the mirror  an awful monster face  frighteningly watching  myself  silently  unable to scream now  
just trying to walk  searching for help  it makes me move as it wants    The something
in Open on 3/7/08
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Journal Entry: Sat Mar 29, 2008, 7:34 PM
  • Mood: Happy
  • Listening to: Mucc-Saishuu Ressha
  • Reading: Brave new world
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: tomato mozzarella
  • Drinking: water
Uah, the holidays are nearly over...*cries*
I need at least two more weeks...-_-

But nevertheless I'm quite happy at the moment:-)
The last days werde wonderful:-)
Seems like there are a lot of positive things and only a few negative ones.

Actually I should be in bed now but I don't really want to. It's no fun going to bed early.;-) I like staying up all night and then sleep until afternoon...:-)

The night rulez!xD

I know I'm just writing what comes to my mind at the moment...not really stuff worth writing a journal entry for but who cares?^^

So, I'll go now and read a bit and then maybe go to bed;-)

baibai;-)

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  • Current Age: 18
  • Current Residence: Germany
  • Interests: Manga&Anime, Japan, languages, books, writing, drawing, Photoshop
  • Favourite movie: About a boy, Formula 17, Boy Culture
  • Favourite band or musician: X-Japan, James Blunt, Enya, Ich&Ich, Emery, Maximum the hormone, Snow Patrol, Mucc
  • Favourite genre of music: J-Rock, Visual Kei, Rock, Pop, Metal
  • Favourite artist: Kaori Yuki, Makoto Tateno
  • Favourite poet or writer: Nick Hornby, Joanne K. Rowling
  • Favourite photographer: Gottfried Helnwein
  • Favourite game: Kingdom hearts
  • Personal Quote: ~Step out of the ordinary~

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~kitieara:iconkitieara: May 28, 2008, 1:27:57 PM
Thanks so much for the fav!!

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*grattefolle:icongrattefolle: May 6, 2008, 1:48:33 PM
THanks a lot for the fave!!!!

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~OB3Y5:iconOB3Y5: Apr 21, 2008, 2:39:36 PM
Thanks for the :+fav:!
~crmk:iconcrmk: Apr 15, 2008, 10:29:07 PM Mood: Adoration
Konichi wa watashi no yuko tenshi :kiss:
Ich wollte dir einfach nur mal schöne Grüße hier lassen. :-)
Ich freue mich schon riesig auf's kommende Wochenende :love:

Anata no hiyoko :kiss:

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*MistressWinter:iconMistressWinter: Mar 7, 2008, 5:01:49 PM
Welcome to dA! I like your poems =]

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~SexySpoons:iconSexySpoons: Mar 7, 2008, 4:47:13 PM
Hi there, welcome to DA :D

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~Tegzz:iconTegzz: Mar 7, 2008, 4:39:06 PM
Welcome to DA.:)

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